hey peps. i feel sad for cik din. He lost his father yesterday. I know its hard for him. I'm super bored. I hate being jobless. Anyways i have nothing much to blog. Take care peps.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm like being emo this whole week. Am i to sensitive? I don't really see anything in this relationship anymore. I'm totally lost. Can someone help me. I'm having doubts with myself. Everytime we fought i always want you by my side, but where are you? You don't even bother or care about my feelings. I just don't get it. Compare you with my previous ex, they know how to comfort me when i'm feeling down or even when we argue. I know i can't compare you with them but why can't you change. I do have feelings. Girls are more fragile. How mad they are with you at the end of it they still need you. Why can't you just be more romantic, nah thats not the word. erm.. why can't you always be there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on. I know you always there for me but the only time you are not there when we argue. Even though how mad/angry i am i still need you. Need you to make me smile. Kiss me, hug me and show me that you love me. I don't see the love anymore. I know i 'paitau' on some issue. But i thought we have agree on it. I hate being force. I hate it! You yourself know it very well. Sometime i kept wondering why, why i'm still with you. I'm having doubts with myself. Oh god please help me. Help me to open his eyes. I can't tolerate it anymore. Everry night i pray, pray that you will change. I just want you to change the attitude. You know what attitude it is. I won't elaborate it here. Oh god i hope you will show us the correct path.

I just can't understand what does she wants. Complain to me things about his bf and she felt as if she's lost. Ey bitch wake up. He don't deserve you. Get a life. Stop clinging on him. I'm sad to hear everything but when you are chatting with me you show me your weaker part but when it comes to my bf you are asking for symphaty. Trying to compare him with your bf. Hello! YES im jealous. Babe you guys are attach for 6 years and yet you can't see his true colour. Let me tell you this he wants to enjoy and he is sick of you! He used to tell me not to entertain you and i was puzzled. Now i know why. You depend on him always. You can't stand on your own feet. Find new friends and mix around. To tell you the truth i don't have lots of friend BUT i have my own initiative to find and mix around. Make myself busy. I know friends do come and go. You are 27 this year. Think like an adults. I know 6 years is long and its hard for you. But you have to see for yourself. Is he there for you when you need him? You are rich and i envy your status. But you can't simply think!

Fuh~ at last! I'm feeling better now. :)

Hey babe. Damn its 0515 Hrs and i'm not asleep yet. Can i wake up later at 8? haha. Baby i can't sleep thanks to you. You been snooring away. Irritating. I'm trying to get some sleep tau. Nevertheless you face is so bacin and cute macam nak sepak2 jek. Since i can't sleep i've been editing tons of picture, editing my blog, tag people in my fb. Internet is super boring. There's nothing else to do. Its either watch movie online or youtube. Baby if i'm heartless i would switch on the tv right now. haha.

Let me start of what happen yesterday. Erm supposingly i should go jogging but there's some changes to it. Instead of jogging, my bf, mr ken and I we went bowling @CDANS. Been a long time since i play. The last time was last month? WTH! I play 2 games but the two guys still continue playing. Don't you guys knnow the meaning of tired? haha. Anyway i enjoy myself. After bowling my bf & I went to mad pizza for so called supper. Damn I really miss the place. There's lots of memories. While eating I kept thinking cause I can't forget what happen there. Miss you guys man. After the supper we went back home. While he was showering i quickly switch on my laptop to message my friends. Telling them this:
Hey babe i went to mad pizza earlier. I think i wanna do gathering there soon. I miss you guys and it was an unforgetable memory. :)

Ok peps i think i wanna get some rest since my bf have stop snooring. haha.

TTYL

hey babe. i've been sleeping over my bf place for quite long time. Enjoying myself. haha. I don't feel happy staying at my own house. I'm feel stress siting in my house. I don't know why. I don't have much to blog but i've kept something for quite sometime. I can't tolerate it anymore. I kept hearing her name. It really hurts me. Eventhough i just kept quite that doesn't mean i'm ok with it. That was your past. I don't want to hear about it. Maybe to you its nothing. Just an empty talk. But to tell you honestly, it hurts me. I don't wish to hear about your past anymore. I can't tolerate it. I'm not jealous, it hurts me. If you think that she's clever, good and etc be my guest go back to her. Even thought this is a minor thing but it really hurt me. Been tested and proven. Not only me, i bet other girls will feel that too. Its not as if i'm being emotional i just have enough of it. I trust you and i know you love me but i just don't like hearing about your past. If my family kept talking about taiwan infront of you, obiously you feel like FUCK! Who am i to you guys. If you respect who i am you won't be talking about her. That is the basic of respecting your partner. I have enough of everything. good night.

Hey babe i suppose to blog this on the 4th due to my busy schedule didn't get the chance to blog this. So let me start now.

Its been 2yrs im with you and i manage to suprise and shut everyone up. Alhamdullilah. Didn't know that we will be this long. When we are just dating i thought that i'm just one of your fling and i thought you are just a passerby. But i didn't expect that we would be this long. Baby you are always there when i need you. But please don't irritate me. Baby i know you have been patient enough with my behaviour and my attitude. I'm sorry i have always hurt you. Emotionally and physically. I'm trying my very best to change and i think you are aware that i have change. Not abit but alot. Thanks for supporting me and keep encourging me. Baby i know my suprise this time is not that fancy. I plan it to be our most romantic outing. I hope you like the candle light by the beach. I'm quite happy that you like the sandwich i made for you. Its been a long time since we last sat at the beach and spend time together. Baby i don't know what to say. I'm deeply in love with you. You know i can't live without you and you too. We are so attached together. Baby i hope you will stop being irritating at times and stop with you mentelicious behaviour. I seriously don't like it. ouh btw i forgot to tell you that i'm quite shocked that you bought for me flowers. I love it. Lastly baby i wanna thank you for everthing you did for me.

*here's some picture we took: