.Sunday, May 10 ' 16:50 Y
Fuck i'm having a toothache. Damn its super irritating. I'm having a
S-U-P-E-R BAD HEADACHE! I hate it.
Aku BENCI BENCI BENCI! Even eating pain killer doesn't help. I have to endure until monday to see a dentist. I feel like crying. Please help me! I need you to be here but you are too busy! You just woke up and first thing is, you will turn on your pc and check your mails and your facebook. While i'm stuck here in your room blogging and only have my laptop to keep me company. You just don't care! Your dad is more concern about me than you. At times i feel that i don't have a boyfriend anymore. You are not like the past, show me care and concern. I don't know if im emo because of this fucking toothache. I can hear those msn message sound. Stop irritate me. I'm feeling hopeless now. I can't go on with this bloody toothache. Its killing me. This bloody toothache makes me moody. Oh god!
Each and every day i realise that the care is no longer there. Baby do u love me for who i am or still stick with me because of lust? I don't know. You are not the old fazrizan who i used to know. Why? You know what i'm refering to. I'm sick and tired of everything. I have my own family problems and i can't even think straight anymore. The only person who give me a support is your parents. If there are not there to give me those encourgement i think i might do something silly. I think i really need to start praying. I hope you will change your attitude. I really can't take it. I'M SICK AND TIRED! I know im not perfect but i have change alot, YES alot for you. Why just can't you change that attitude of yours. Anyway please respect me for who i am. I not a whore. You are a guy and i'm a women. We women are weak so please please please stop using all your defensive tactics on me. Now im almost done with blogging you come in the room to show care.
Ya allah aku mohon segalanya akan selesai secepat mungkin. Aku tidak sanggup lagi.
